The day I found out I was pregnant with Kanin I was shocked and straight up terrified. Although he was wanted and worked for, I don't think I was mentally prepared to actually get pregnant. Weird concept when you think about it, however, it was my reality. Even though I'd been pregnant before, he was different. Not … Continue reading A Little Subtraction And Addition
Wow, Kanin is FIVE today! Say what? Where on Earth did five years go? I remember sitting on a labor ball, thinking "I can do this. The pain is temporary. Pretend you're at the beach" over and over again. Quickly asking to be checked by my nurse who thought I was insane and couldn't possibly be almost … Continue reading The Big 5!
Your mind is your prison when you focus on your fear. - Tim Fargo For as long as I can recall, I've had anxiety. It's never been outlandish, just the simple social awkwardness and feeling of being overwhelmed in large crowds. After Kanin it became extreme, but I managed. After Aerilyn it skyrocketed to astronomical … Continue reading Centered
Prior to marriage and kids, I was a free spirit. I didn't care what happened tomorrow, only today in this moment. Worries were drowned out by going, going, going and only letting it bother me for a short time period. Being careless with my life was normal and I constantly sought the next adventure once … Continue reading What Have I Become