I know I said I wanted to keep up on my blog this pregnancy, but that hasn't really happened. I've been stunted and unable to fully form my thoughts. There are many drafts, edits, and re-edits of posts I haven't published yet. There is technically only one belly picture posted so far as well, which … Continue reading Half Way There
The day I found out I was pregnant with Kanin I was shocked and straight up terrified. Although he was wanted and worked for, I don't think I was mentally prepared to actually get pregnant. Weird concept when you think about it, however, it was my reality. Even though I'd been pregnant before, he was different. Not … Continue reading A Little Subtraction And Addition
Wow, Kanin is FIVE today! Say what? Where on Earth did five years go? I remember sitting on a labor ball, thinking "I can do this. The pain is temporary. Pretend you're at the beach" over and over again. Quickly asking to be checked by my nurse who thought I was insane and couldn't possibly be almost … Continue reading The Big 5!
Your mind is your prison when you focus on your fear. - Tim Fargo For as long as I can recall, I've had anxiety. It's never been outlandish, just the simple social awkwardness and feeling of being overwhelmed in large crowds. After Kanin it became extreme, but I managed. After Aerilyn it skyrocketed to astronomical … Continue reading Centered